My chest was tight. Breathing became slow and rhythmic. My arms are stretched out and locked on the steering wheel of my 2014 bronze, Volvo V60. Fixation consumed my mind as I raced down the highway. Tears stained my cheeks and dropped onto my lap. That day, in mid May 2021, I had a very … More Panic
Trigger Warning: This post talks about pregnancy loss. I woke up at 6:30am. The previous night didn’t allow for much sleep, and so I decided to take the pills that the doctor prescribed. Two hours later, nothing happened. By this point, my partner was up. “Can I go work on the car?” “Sure” My husband … More Goodbye
“We can give you medication or remove the tissue in the hospital.” “Which is better?” The brightly lit room with yellow overhead lights seared into my memory. The beige countertops that matched the upper cabinets directly across from us, and the fake terrazzo laminate flooring lacked a sense of comfort or belonging. Somber I could … More Decisions
For most of my life, I have been a mediator and the ultimate people pleaser. I found happiness to see other people happy at the expense of my own. September of 2020 is when my life changed. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~The humming of the AC sent chills down my spine. A dark, sterile room made bright with flickering … More Silence
Dear Rosita 