My chest was tight. Breathing became slow and rhythmic. My arms are stretched out and locked on the steering wheel of my 2014 bronze, Volvo V60. Fixation consumed my mind as I raced down the highway. Tears stained my cheeks and dropped onto my lap. That day, in mid May 2021, I had a very … More Panic
“You need a kick in the ass.” November of 2020, we bought a house. An administrator, Mr. A, encouraged me to take some days off to recollect myself. But the condition was that I had to be “over” it. I scheduled for two days off concurrently with when we moved into our new house. He … More Advocacy
I woke up on my husband’s side of the bed in a puddle of my own sweat. It was dark. Though, I could see the flickering light from the television illuminate the hallway. 7:30pm Shifting my body to get out of bed, I realized that the intense pain had subsided. Quickly, I hobbled over to … More Aftermath
Trigger Warning: This post talks about pregnancy loss. I woke up at 6:30am. The previous night didn’t allow for much sleep, and so I decided to take the pills that the doctor prescribed. Two hours later, nothing happened. By this point, my partner was up. “Can I go work on the car?” “Sure” My husband … More Goodbye
“We can give you medication or remove the tissue in the hospital.” “Which is better?” The brightly lit room with yellow overhead lights seared into my memory. The beige countertops that matched the upper cabinets directly across from us, and the fake terrazzo laminate flooring lacked a sense of comfort or belonging. Somber I could … More Decisions
Dear Rosita 